To be completely honest, I've somewhat forgotten about this blog/journal.
To recap all that passed since last time:
for a while i was without earphones and then, with all past files available after all the drama I've downloaded them all, as before I've only had Twilight's. Listening to a few others... made me realise that, honestly, Twilight is not for me.
At the first listen i liked them. From then on i had been practically in love with the Fluttershy files. Better written, seemingly better voiced and, most of all, closer to myself. As much as I'd like to think I'm an antisocial genius, I'm not. And, to be completely honest, that particular introspection came rather late. So, Fluttershy. Much more "me", much closer to how I'd like to be.
Yet, sadly, I'm... particularly hypnotically inept? Unobservant and I've actually been in trance? I don't know. There were only a few times, six in total i think, since the start of my dabbling with hypnosis, when i was convinced that I'd been in trance.
Where am i even going with this? I dont know. I've been pouring my thoughts and problems into words. That is all.
I am working on it. Slowly.
I still have no clue how to end this.