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About AstralAmity


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  1. Week uhhh.. Re-introduction

    Consider this the actual introduction about myself. I have been working my way up to be more consistent with what I am doing, but I guess I just have to take a step back and not be so strict on myself. A lot has been changing for me. I hate to make my journals messy like this... but I won't be able to do these journals weekly. That way though, I can condense much more interesting details/stories into these posts. Re-introduction I want to provide more of an actual introduction about myself... So here it goes. I joined the fandom in late 2013, and found out about the tulpa community and sub-sequentially this community in 2014. For a long while, I used the Fluttershy hypnosis file, and it was very compatible considering how especially shy I was at the time (I am still shy, but in different ways now). As the time passed, I got into making videos, being inspired by the people that I watched on YouTube. Having had no music experience, I started having a huge interest in making music. The fandom music is something that will always be something special to me, especially the earlier music that I came across as I joined the fandom. However, I had an immense hate for myself that continued to build up in ways I never would have thought originally. I was never happy with myself, despite how many friends tried to help cheer me up. I had a similar issue in my childhood too, which all led up to a moment a few years ago where I was in the second darkest time of my life. Fortunately, I got through it with the help of friends and therapy. Nowadays, I live happily with my grandma alongside my loving partner Silver-Ember (who happens to be a part of the community here). She has helped me tremendously more than I ever could have imagined. I have gone through so much great change since I first became a part of this hypnosis community... it helped me to ultimately help me find who I am (for the most part of course). I give my thanks to everyone who might be reading this. <3 Anywho, all that aside, I hope you all have a wonderful day!
  2. Letter 0: Introductions

    I'm sorry to hear you went through such tough times! ;; I've had somewhat similar experiences relating to friends going through rough times and me not handling it well internally.. including having lost some. But that aside, I've learned a whole lot personally on emotional intelligence, albeit I'm still learning. ^^ I hope we can continue to move forward together! This community is something very special to me, although I am inherently shy sometimes. That aside, I look forward to reading more and more of your journals.
  3. Hello, To Friends New And Old!

    And same to you! I'm only starting my second year, but thx! I already look up to you given how accomplished you are regarding studies.
  4. Hello, To Friends New And Old!

    Oh wow, that sounds exciting! VR is a huge fascination of mine too, although my niche for now is AI. A huge goal for me is to get into the neurotech industry and help with breakthroughs in R&D. From there, probably be a part of fully immersive VR. If technology continues as it is, to the very least I'll be a part of something pretty cool. ^.^ The other huge passion of mine is theoretical science.. and space. cx Anyway, as far as Discord, I get that. There really are so much people ^^' If you have a profile though, I'd love to be friends with you! Whether there or at least here on the forums.
  5. Hello, To Friends New And Old!

    Hi Eternal! I'm trying to jog my memory if I've met you yet or not, but either way it's nice to meet you! (if you've been in the discord chat before, I'm pretty sure I may have seen you at least, as that general name you said you went by sounds familiar I think?) I've personally changed my profile name many times back in my early self-discovery (sometimes went by either "Techoh" or "Flutters" or whatnot) and was gone on huge hiatuses... so I understand how that feels. I sometimes feel afraid to jump into chat because of slight anxiety, too. As far as school/research, what is it that you are involved with? I'm interested to hear! I personally am into a lot of different sciences, though technically studying computer science.
  6. hows it going new here :D

    Hi, and welcome! Like what everyone here is saying, just keep trying! The brain is a mechanism built to be flexible and powerful. It's all about the way you make new connections, and the beautiful thing is that everyone has access to it! Anywho, I hope you enjoy your time here with this community.
  7. Hello I'm a newpony

    Welcome MoonShard! This community is incredibly friendly in my own experience. I was the same way originally about being super shy. And to be honest... I still can be shy sometimes. ^^' Anyway, I hope you enjoy the community!
  8. The Exchange of Knowledge

    I was reading through some of these old posts, and I just have to leave a reply here to say that your post left me in tears just now. I've been... thinking about a lot of my past, and one thing that led me into the fandom was the death of someone incredibly special to me way back in jr. high. She was the one person I could connect with back then, and she happened to be a teacher. I helped her after class to clean, so we had a lot of time together in that classroom... where she taught me to believe in myself. I actually taught her to program, which she showed the whole class before she abruptly passed. The universe works in mysterious ways... Even though she didn't know about my family circumstances at the time involving myself (which gave me immense shame at the time), she believed in me to the point where I completely flipped my life around and started to just be myself. And things cleared up, I started to realize the majesty of learning and teaching as you mentioned it. That's why I always want to share my knowledge and never stop learning, personally... ...I've been crying too much lately T-T First this morning and now just a few minutes ago. And yesterday, I think. Anyway, thank you for your post. No matter how hard it is for me, I still ought to remember that message of life...
  9. Journal Announcements!

    I just made my journal earlier this week. I still need to find a better image banner... but anyway, here it is. It's a pegasus journal titled "My Pegasus Self."
  10. Week 1

    I was meaning to post on yesterday, but I was playing Skyrim VR all day. >.< I suppose I should start with the effects I've felt over the week. It's gotten normal for my hands to go numb (and difficult to move my fingers unless I "switch" out of my hooves) in the hypnosis files, but as the days passed this week I started to feel my whole body feeling a similar thing too. It's almost as though my body wasn't sending quite as many signals, but it wasn't quite completely numb. I had a sense of where my pony body was, and had a vague sense of sensory input from it. The first few days was a bit messy in terms of details, but now it's starting to get a bit more accurate in terms of the form that I am taking. The brush in the new pegasus file was amazing in shaping my tail and mane! Before that file, I was having difficulty visualizing my tail correctly. A few times, the colors of my coat and mane was off, but I'm wondering if that is based on my previous files a year or so ago (at one point I was Rainbow Dash, for instance). By Sunday morning, though, I was able to immerse myself enough to have a sense of my pony body's weight and even vaguely feel my wings if I concentrate. Same goes with the ears, there. I could use a bit more practice in making the sensations more noticeable. Oh! And also, on Friday while I was at work and there wasn't much to do, Vinyl (my tulpa) was really active. We spent pretty much the whole day together. ^^ I've also been searching inside myself, and I think I communicated with a part of myself which had been damaged and the root of many of my issues from a few years ago. This part of myself took the form of my old OC, as I pretty much... split myself, years ago. It was one of my mistakes, but I've been coming to terms with myself this past year so things have been getting better. I'm finally giving this part of myself some love and empathy, rather than shunning myself away. Interesting now that this part of myself is taking a mental form of my old pegasus OC... the one that was more shy. When conversing with this part of me (much like how I talk with a tulpa, but still definitely different), I wondered afterwards if this is a part of my "true" pegasus self... I've already changed my form so many times, I guess I just want stability as Astral Amity, but I can't shake off the feeling that this is still a part of me. Maybe I can still take the form of Astral, but minor changes might occur with me as I come to terms more with myself. This was a lengthy post. :v Anyway, to sum it up, I am getting closer to my first goal of focusing on my pony form consistently, though I do still need work. Making sure I am not too tired before hypnosis as well as not playing any videogames right before. That way I can have focused visuals coming in that are not influenced by much else. Until next week.
  11. Introduction

    Hi everypony! For those who don't know me, I'm Astral. I've gone by multiple names/forms in the past (such as Techoh), but after all these years I think I finally found myself... It took me long enough to finally get back in touch with the community, but I'm back. So much in my life has changed, but I still see myself as a pony even after all this time. To preface, I have a few years experience with the hypno-files as well as tulpas. My background is both in the realm of science and metaphysics. I bring to the table neuro/psychological knowledge, energy/aura manipulation, and other relevant topics throughout this journal. Other experience in my life is programming and developing myself towards working with Brain-Computer Interfaces. That all aside... My goal, it's simple. Enhance my experience in my pony form! ^^ Ultimately, my goal is to have seamless immersion while remaining in balance with my human life. I’ll be very honest here, I neglected my human body and even took an unhealthy approach years ago (it's a long story I'd rather not go into, but it relates to earlier life trauma). Now though, my mind is now in the best shape it's been since… ever. This is in due because of my personal life moving forward. I want to give it my all, to improve my visualization and imposition skills as well as learn more about myself. My partner that I live with (literally we sleep in the same bed) is another motivation, as I love the feeling of being with her especially while I'm in my pony form. Her profile name is Silver-Ember and she is my cutie pie. <3 Ultimately, though, I am becoming more whole with my pony form for my own reasons. That way I remain consistent in my training as well as enhance my experience. I do feel excited, because this time I want to plan specific goals that I plan to reach as I document my training. Here are the main goals I am starting out with. 1 - During each hypnosis/meditation, consistently maintain at least 90% - 95% focus on my pony form and/or other relevant pony experiences during the files. 2 - With aid of triggers, incorporate pony form through imposition so as it feels natural and effortless. 3 - Increase sensory detail in both mindscape and imposition. Reach at least ghost/phantom sensations. Aaaand, the ultimate goal in which all my smaller goals reach to: - Full immersion as my pony self. The way I am going to go about achieving these goals is by listening to the generic pegasus file every night possible, alongside supplement hypnosis while riding on the long bus ride to work in the morning. While walking from the bus to work, I will try to maintain my pony form (as walking is very relaxing to me with the cool morning temperature). When I get to work, luckily I don't face many people as I am just programming on my computer. Then I'll head back home, either practicing visualizing or just reading a book (depending on how I feel). After that, repeat onward to the next night. To finish this intro off, here are pictures of my OC! These are rather old, and I need to get some commissioned… but I hope it gives an idea of who I am. I want some pictures that bring out more of my OC’s feminine side. ^^’ The pony to the right in the second picture is Silver-Ember's OC. <3 Anyway, thank you if you happen to take an interest in this journal. ^^' I'll be writing every Sunday, for my own benefit in keeping a catalog of my progress towards achieving my goals in this endeavor. Infinite Love, Astral Amity
  12. Coders! Admit Your Bad Habits!

    Continuing to code and code without actually taking moments to stop and make sure I didn't make any small errors. I'm too impatient it seems.
  13. Clothing

    purple flannels and tank tops for the summer, scarf and kimono jacket things and/or a hoodie during the winter. For my bottoms, nothing real special, though I do want to start wearing my leggings and skirts again when it starts getting colder.
  14. Best fruit

    strawberries. :3
  15. "You know what? I think I'm trans."

    I personally grew up not thinking too much about wanting to be a girl. Now that I think about it (after reading through Bright Star's recent post), I may have tried on a princess outfit when I was younger... but anyway, ever since hormones came in for me, I guess imagining myself as female was always a sort of "kink" that I had. But in retrospect, it was more than that, because before I got in the shower I would look in the mirror and try to "look female." Real feelings started to come out when I was feeling envious of the girls around me... I wanted to be like them. When I found the hypnoponies site and files, I used that as a way to explore my feelings. It was a period of half a year or so until I found out that being transgender was a thing, and I guess I just kinda slipped into that identity pretty smoothly. I know a lot of other people find it difficult to accept these sort of things, but for me I was just being free to be myself. So I guess that's it, there. I regret that testosterone pretty much f**ked up my face, but to the least I'm on HRT... it's a journey. ^^'

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